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to the crazy planet of my mind
I have been numbing…
In the beginning of this current state of physical distancing I was worried but the idea of spending a few months at home wasn’t so bothersome… But when a few months turned to several and then spanned the holidays things got harder for me. Two weeks before Thanksgiving my oldest habit of stuffing my emotions with food kicked in. I ate every emotion that I had experienced from March 2020… not healthy I know but this is what I have known for a good portion of my life. My body is paying the price for my inability to manage my emotions. After Christmas the food numbing diminished. This was replaced with my 2nd oldest habit. I began numbing with TV. I have watched every show and movie that never interested me. In the past weeks this inability to process my feelings has caught up with me. Anger, sadness, unhappiness, this is what I am now confronted with. When I consider the length of time its been since my last hug with another human being, my eyes start to water. The very thing that reduces stress and anxiety, the simple act of kindness and love eludes me. We are all having very different, yet uncomfortable circumstances with this pandemic. But I encourage you, if you have someone to hug, hug them now, hug them hard, hug them like your life depends on it… because it does.
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